I am rereading The Black Company, this time on my devices -- my phones and my tablets. I was struck today by this passage.

Quote from: Shadow Games, p40. . . The staff came to enquire after my needs. They were revolting in their obsequiousness.
   A disgusting little part of me gobbled it up. A part just big enough to show why some men lust after power. But not for me, thank you. I am too lazy. And I am, I fear, the unfortunate victim of a sense of responsibility. Put me in charge and I try to accomplish the ends to which the office was allegedly created. I guess I suffer from an impoverishment of the sociopathic spirit necessary to go big time.

I must go and reflect upon this passage in my response to Sylvie's Ways of Speaking.

"interesting decisions," eh?

last night i was tiiiired. i thought maybe i was done droqevering.
now i think i need to make a new databug, stop making poems, but it was nice to focus on vibe while it lasted

April 13
had a dream about basketball.
thinking about systems, small choices within systems, expressive systems with wrong choices that are right sometimes
wrong choices that are right sometimes, and you find yourself understanding when to make those off-the-wall choices

I've barely started today's game, and I'm lying in bed relaxing, or trying to relax. Maybe I want to write.

April 12
"a vessel for poetry"
I want to read more books...
I like difficult little platformers.
Museums, playground with ladders that you have to climb.
You climb to see the next exhibit.

April 10
Ezra discord call while walking to Valu Village, Riverdale, headphones

Conversation about structure, narrative structure.
See Instagram image: https://www.instagram.com/p/C5mor5luKHB/?igsh=ZzYxc251bzhtNjc5

Came to the conclusion that I really like the structure of game where I spend some time committing to a route, and then a bunch of time being 'rewarded,' seeing the larger-scale outcome of my actions and choices.

Wouldn't have gotten here without this chat, without Ezra pointing out roguelikes and 'information games.' I have a brand new lens to try out.

April 9
Had a conversation with Zack about doing droqever & having a fulltime game design job: he asked if I was worried about them both drawing from the same well, creatively speaking.
I said I wasn't worried, said that making a game every day gave me energy if anything, although I was and am concerned about the possibility of logistically running out of energy or literal time.

However, this remains the easiest thing I've ever done.

notpron

April 10

Information gates, information keys
Chapters of a book
Roguelikes...
The Stanley Parable...