it's very simple. i think to do (https://letterclub.games/2024/10/07/to-do/) opened up a rift inside of me.
i was feeling quite down today, and i couldn't identify why.
and now reflecting on the events of the past few days,
i wonder if it was the creation of two new droqevers that
actually brought these mucky feelings to the surface.
hmm.
[ A. it is a reality that art (along with anything else -- this is not unique to art) can make me feel bad. (either making or regarding. or both.) what is to be done in this situation?
B. discontinuing the relationship with art (the individual work, the specific relationship, or the form in general) is not an option, right? life is real. hmm ]
i'm really enjoying my journaling game. it has brought me peace. i feel better having been through it. it has allowed me to reflect on things.
playing through my droqever leaves me muddled and full of doubts and messy thoughts. confusions. things that aren't clear to me. it is not pristine. i dislike it, even.
changed title of thread to reference, explicitly, the book UGLY FEELINGS (https://newforum.droqen.com/index.php?topic=559.0).