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have my ideas and share them. cut. the page of swords is a duelist, i guess. casual.
am i too quick to react, and too quick to share my justifications? i'm not sure how to take this page of swords.
i said, "help me prepare for this," and i wonder how i can take this card as a hint about how i could better prepare.

remember i have lots of thoughts and ideas. open up and admit my page of swords like qualities.
maybe. that could be alright. if i have too many ideas, just choose one. give it a cut, go for it.
cut.

i have got a conflict. two different things that i want to do. i think i know how to resolve it this time, maybe. this is a microcosm of problems to come. what will happen in the future when i have more conflicts? at some point i will have to choose one thing over another. help me prepare for this. how do i make these decisions? how do i communicate?

4. AI product.

The first piece, Video Game Taxonomy etc etc etc, is an article written for the sake of selling an AI product. I have a read on the writer's idea of what is going on and what is important based on the examples they give, the nature of their taxonomy, the language they use, etc.

There is the presentation, through all this, of actual information: a classification tool, with its own biases.

When I think about the classification tool, I am not thinking about its use to me as a neutral thing. I want to know who it's for, who it's designed for. Am I the person who would find this tool useful? In trying to discover the answer to this question I have to ask, who is the person who would find this tool useful?

This is where I begin to judge the audience.

The first two sentences of the conclusion makes it very obvious who the (intended) audience is: it's people who are getting others to solve problems for them. The article is presenting not a tool for designers to use to understand their craft better; it is presenting a tool for people 'above' designers (I am neutral about the existence of these people, but let me say - bosses, managers, investors, CEOs - these are the people who are handling higher-level, larger, problems) to simplify what designers do so that they do not have to trouble themselves with the details as much.

This is not a tool that is designed for me. I can safely, therefore, dismiss all the information quite readily. It is not for me, and I do not need to expend mental resources on considering the value of the actual information. I find it much easier to dismiss the artist, to dismiss the audience.

3. In each case I have noticed two distinct mental reaction-objects within my self.

The first is the recipient of information.

The second is the judgement of the vehicle which presents the information. By this I do not mean 'the medium' or 'how well the artist uses the medium' (in this case how the authors use text -- or the essay or slideshow or essay format, respectively), but the underlying motivation, the mood of the artist, what transformation they seek to capture.

The most interesting part of a transformation is not what you end up with, but where you start.


These transformations are rarely successful and even when they are successful they are never entirely successful. Therefore, asking these questions about where the transformation starts is fundamental to understanding where the transformation ends: Answers what did they believe without thinking? can be carried into the future, answering questions like, Who are they today? What will they continue to be tomorrow?

I would like to note, here, that I am not using -- would not use -- this as a weapon. People do change, but in different ways that you would expect from your vantage point. The things that other people change about themselves are small, piece by piece, and retain much of the existing structure. As much as possible, usually. You will rarely be permitted to perceive this structure, and so any presumed transformation that occurs within another person is likely much smaller than you think, and perhaps impossible for you to understand. Impossible for someone to even explain to you, most of all by the person who has been born within and has lived their life entirely within their own mental structure.

I am seeking to understand this impulse that I have within myself (to judge, or maybe it would be better to say to perceive), and its possible utility to me or to others, if any.

2. These are the pieces, in chronological order:

- "Video Game Taxonomy Can Transform Game Development: Here's How"
(please don't click, i don't recommend reading this to anyone on any basis, but link)

- "Fuck Videogames" (link)

- "Bad People" (link)
(I have not finished reading this one yet but I understand the thrust of it.)

1. I have recently read a few pieces -- not all 'art' but it's easier to use that broad term here -- which have found me judging the artist and by extension "the audience" -- there is surely a better term for this but I mean the image of the person for whom the artist creates which the artist creates.

(I'm having a little fun with language. I mean, the artist creates this image. We all create images of each other. Then the artist creates the art for the image. I'm getting lost in this, let's carry on)

[AB]

i've taken out every card that i recognize, i have myself a "new cards only" deck... this will allow me to draw simpler readings and not get bogged down in familiar faces! but a certain predominance will be very artificially induced. i'm not sure what to do about that!

well, let's ask my question. when caught up in others' emotions, i will try to detach. solve what can be solved. this is a very swords-like attitude, i suppose. what i am not thinking about? what am i forgetting to feel?

KNIGHT OF WANDS

when caught up in others' emotions... remember my knight of wands? or perhaps remember theirs? remind people that they would prefer to be in motion, too. when feeling is a blocker... feel the feeling, of course, but let's get you back in touch with your knight of wands. wave your banner of flame in the air!!! i like this reading, i like this reflection.

i've reshuffled the deck as i gave a reading to a friend(?) and now i'm going to draw nothing but repeats. old friends.

the six of cups, my beloved return to childhood.
the star, a healing resurgent waterfall.
the seven of wands, defending one's position.

i drew these cards without anything much in mind. they slid out of the deck as i shuffled. they are good cards. i read this as defending all the energy that comes from this silly childlike attitude, but it's pretty aimless. and i'm forced to push through until i arrive at a 'new' card according to my process. am i pushing too hard?

i know that this is going to wind up drawing me unwarranted swords... i'm not feeling it right now. i'll do it tonight.