disconnection from the source

[droqen]

something bothering me right now is the idea that we come to value things without necessarily respecting why we valued them in the first place

what do i mean by that. let's say, money.

when i was a little child i wanted to buy one of the Worms games, i think it was Worms: Armageddon. my father said, you could wait like a week and Worms World Party will be coming out and it will be the same price.
   (i actually think it was a different Worms game but whatever.)
however, in my eternal impatience, i said, no, i want the one i can get now. so i got it, i regretted it, but what can you do? i had already spent the money.

money.

there have been other situations in my life where i wanted something and money was either what enabled or prevented my access to the object of my desire. as a result i came to associate money with:

1. getting things that i want, or

2. not getting things that i want.

as a result, money feels like possibility. and the association isn't incorrect: money does get you things that you want, and often, a lack of money is the reason you can't get things that you want. however, money itself is not the object of my desire divorced from context, and  yet the brain clings more readily to money as the object, itself, of desire and comfort and whatnot.

what if someday i had enough money to have everything and anything that it occurred to me to desire? what would happen? there are two possibilities as i see it:

(i.) i no longer associate money with "getting or not getting what i want"

(ii.) i pursue greater desires in order to maintain money's relationship to "getting or not getting what i want"

i see both of these occurring in different people, in different situations, in different ways.